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The Climb

Battling with confidence.

Self-insecurities.

One day I'm up, the next I'm down.

Happy. Sad. Happy. Angry. Happy. Sad. Happy. Mad.

I've asked myself many times.. 'Who am I? and 'Why do I seem to possess two different personalities?'

Just a girl with issues with myself. Surrounded by people who appear to have been born with solid personalities. They don't wake up some days and tear themselves apart for really no reason at all and then wake up the very next day and go back to 'normal'.

They're not like me.

They're happy, fine, confident, secure in themselves. They rarely get it wrong. Good at whatever they do.

How do I know this?

Because I see it.. I see it everywhere. I walk down the street and I see it. I see it at work. I see it in family. I see it in friends. I see smiley faces everywhere I go. I hear people respond with,'Yes thank you', every time someone asks if their alright.

That's how I know that everyone around me is okay.

So why is just me? Why do I get it so right some days and so wrong others. Why am I alright Monday and not Tuesday? So to speak.

Just a girl with issues with myself I guess.

Or not.

Hubby and I sat chatting late last night about this. And I think that I may have just cracked it.

I don't own two different personalities. I'm not at war with myself on Tuesdays or Wednesdays or Thursdays or any other day of the week in fact.

It's just a climb.

It's a personal, mostly silent, climb. And we're all making it.

Sometimes we take one step up and two back down. And sometimes two up and one down. And on a very good day-  two or more up and none down.

The climb can be steep and some are better at navigating past the falling rocks than others. But we're all doing it.

The climb represents our level of confidence and as we get higher over time we get older, naturally.

A bad day doesn't need over-analysing. (Something that as a Virgo, I'm all too good at).

A bad day is just a small theoretical stumble on my climb.

If I don't self-focus and I look to the left and to the right there are others who have fallen back just a little, I'm not on my own. If I look up, I see there are others further along and if I look down I see there are others just starting out on their climb. But no-one's just moving up, they all take down and they all take steps up. We all do the same thing. Some have just been making the climb for longer than others.

And so I think I may finally understand... Life is a climb.

And as with all climbs, this one has one hell of a view.

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3 comments

  1. I think one of the greatest quotes I've heard regarding self confidence is "never compare your every days to somebody else's highlights". I think we're all guilty of putting our best versions of us out there for the world to see, and we don't see the battle that others might have gone through to get to the point that they feel "together" enough to go out the door. I think the online world is so often like that too, and it can really quickly make you feel like your floundering while everyone else has it all figured out.
    I think a climb is a great way of looking at it. Those people who look like they have a headstart on you have probably just been at it longer. x

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    1. I couldn't agree with you more regarding the Internet and putting our best sides out there. We do it because we like to record the best moments in our lives. But people reading these memories of ours don't get to see the other sides of our lives. We all go through the same things. x

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  2. I completely agree with what you have written. We all have good days and bad days, and days where we feel great about ourselves, but then we also have days where we feel like we are failing, or we lack self confidence. I over analyse all the bad things but never stop and think about the good things about myself- I should do that more. xx

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