Well, that wasn't so bad..

I did it! I got through day one.

Today was my first day back at work after having just over a year off and my gosh it was a day that I had dreaded since before I had even had Ethan - it's the day that most mothers dread.

But if I'm honest, it wasn't so bad. 

I mean yeah I cried like an absolute baby when we dropped Ethan off at his Grandmas last night, I cried... and cried... and cried.. until I fell asleep in fact.

But when I woke this morning I felt strong, I felt strong for me, for Ethan, for my Husband, for our future. 

The day had come, it was happening.. regardless of anything. It was time to get up, dust off my uniform and find my inner strength and that's exactly what I did. 

And well... it was just fine.. In fact I enjoyed the break, I came home feeling recharged and refreshed. I didn't care about the dirty litter that the cats had spread all across the floor I didn't mind making a huge mess at dinner. I was back with my family, the only thing that actually matters. Being away from the house was good for me, I stopped obsessing about it. I realised I'm not the only one responsible for everything. I realised that the house and Ethan are not just my responsibility, that my fear of feeling not in control is actually silly and unhealthy, being not in control is sometimes a good thing. It allows us to recharge and let someone else take charge for once. We are of course, only human.

Back together again, after work. His smile was the biggest its ever been when he saw me. 
Wearing uniform for the first time in a loooongg time this morning! 
I am so lucky in the days I've been given to work and the work I do. Working Mondays and Fridays really does split the days up and makes it probably a hell of a lot easier to deal with emotionally. As Mums we all have our own personal reasons as to why we go back or we don't. Personally, I feel it's for the best for us, it means that Ethan (and I) will learn to be around other people and feel content. I want him to grow up social and not clingy (I am a clingy person and it hasn't really ever done me any favours) and I feel this is the best thing I can do to encourage that. I also feel that he will deeply benefit from getting a break from being at home with me, he seems to really enjoy being at his Grandmas and there's lots to explore and many new toys to play with. I strongly believe that there can be many benefits to returning to work after having a baby for everyone involved :)

What do you think? What have you got planned? Will you/have you returned to work?


  1. Glad it went well! I hated going back to my old job part time initially but you're right, the time away does everyone good! Xo

  2. Congrats for making it through your first day back at work after maternity leave!!! I am currently on leave awaiting the birth of my first baby {any day now!}, and the idea of having to go back to work in January is so frightening! Thanks for the inspiration!

    ~ Nicole from http://bumpsandbeginnings.blogspot.com

  3. Pleased to hear it went well! I think it does help in a whole variety of ways. Personally I couldn't cope with working full time & being a mum, so part time suits me fine for now. It's great you got the days that make you feel happy x

  4. Aww I'm glad it went well.

    I definitely think the being apart can be a good thing. If I had family nearby who could watch Tyne I would absolutely want to work part time, just for the social side - but we don't and I don't want to put him in childcare so it's a no go for us until school!


  5. Glad it went well for you hun. I'm a SAHM so honestly I dread the day my babies no longer need me as much and having to return to work, I am going to be so out of my depth!!! x

  6. Aw I am so glad it went well and go you *proud* xx
    Beautyqueenuk xx

  7. So glad it went much better than you thought. I dreaded going back to work after I had my twins. I ended up resigning though because childcare for two just didn't add up against my wages. :( It does sound like you enjoyed being back!

  8. i returned to work recently after a year off as well. It hasn't been easy but we're getting through. And it's certainly nice to have adult conversations daily ;)

  9. It sounds like your first day back went really well! It's definitely good to give someone else some of the responsibility too. I hope work carries on being not so bad and that Ethan enjoys the time too x